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Lan Parties

Yeah these are cool, a bunch of nerd sitting around playing a game together.  Either you got your FPS crowd, or RTS peoples, and then you can even have console gamers, and many more.

I could almost care less about anything but FPSes.  Especially team based ones, they are the most fun for me, even if I am not exceedingly good at them, just moderate.

Here is a Lan Party I went to about 2 months ago, you could say in another two months (within that amount of time) I will have a Lan Party as well.

Kind of putting these up to make you guys think about what a Lan Party used to be and amp up for the one that will happen in the near future.

Whereas the thought of the action preseeds
the result is never quite the same
Mind walking without Gepeato's strings
can journey back from and to great things

Touch the thing you see and it will cease
to be the same for which you touched it
Praise away nay the play and instead
so much you love without loving the host

Love the actions and the existence
that the one generating such peace
can rain it to all subjects within her
gia.

- Jim McKibben

In the throws of passion, the element is the action.
Generating that element takes pairs
that want mutual existence,
not self serving vapid transparence.

She doesn't put out, he doesn't talk,
He doesn't put out, she doesn't talk,
Communication is key,
That is the philosophy.

Could one reach such an enlightened state,
that all there is pleasure to masturbate?

My world desires to seek,
fruits that are ripe and meek.
While spoken is the world of voice,
token advice actions speak twice.

Worlds view on men is only as powerful as ten,
ten is but one with a zero at the end.

The power of man is the culmination of his zen.

The zeal of woman is how she can bend that zen
Remove the zero at the end of ten
Make women and men out of his zen
To forces untold and for futures unfold
You know the pedia can only hold stedia
For power amplifies and shorts lead to lies.

Truth is the table that I wish to eat
Forefront foretold forenot the too bold
Fall on their face their own ass they trace
Seek not the self and try something else.

*now blogger has consumed th c.

any good game desires a good game player
king chess players finesse with knight like manner
rooms dominated by psycionistic pervasive pattern
snipe deriving beckoning denouncement of divine dividends
the player must also make patterns on the game
for otherwise fruitless is the one that doesn't reap
concentric coexistent cohesive make the pattern
one share the same separate we sustain
currently i have math to study and two customers to finish
and some time to put in at generic, too much time at east side
guitar lyric are cool even if on a ds though it does lack in metal
being mostly plastic i believe there should be a new plastic metal
and even plastic metal is pretty hard
the two acts prior had a power and metal

the electronic kids have a different way of hearing it but they are one and the same
in electronca generally (this changes when you got live pa - where) the artist has created
material with incredible rhythms and beat structure that is art to dance with
and in live pa you see smithing that is of incredible proportions, they
actually allow themselves to draw right on the dancer
its like nothing else in this world
well i could name one thing that might just top that
but you see that does make it bounce back
ocean of motion to proportion of extortion
threads weaving together new strings to be strung again
hopeless romantic i
mom that knows true guidance from a woman's point of view
father that knew circa 20s matting patterns
could have been good old boy i yet Jehovah's Witness was i
sight only sees half way, look again to see some mo
to have a seconds care for the existential moment isn't my mo
my forefathers sewed and reaped as will i

much love,
jonny5

Yeah, it happened on Saturday and I am just now putting something down about it.  Its been a busy week already and it shows no sign of slowing down.  Yet I did get to compete in a code competition and really not do as well as I would have liked at the C++/Java portion of the challenge, my team, "The Knights of the Loop Table" (if you know code that would be funny - loops are found in code) did knock one out.  It was a our first submission as well.  The other teams would try and try again to submit something and get it wrong or get points deducted for having a failed submission - ours worked the first time.  How do you make failing code?

Dunno, we should probably ask NASA about that.

Ohh... snap.

Still, I'm a bit heated that we only got one in and further that my skills with C++ were not enough to finish one of the programming projects that I started on (oh and we got there a bit late too).

Why is everything in the long run?  Who wants a long run?  Either means you gotta lot of clothes to clean or you had better have a lot of condoms... either sounds like a ... well the second would be more fun.

In the long run, I got hired to continue development on a real program.  That is pretty cool and it seems like I might be making about 10 to 20 hours a week on it depending on how much time I spend or how much work we can generate for ourselves.  We might even try to put the "Knights of the Loop Table" in the code somewhere so that we get to go down in infamy for something not all that bad.

Now that it is 3:30 am and I am really not at all tired (went to bed at about 6 pm or so yesterday and slept all night... yes it was amazing) I think I am going to finish that Math homework that has been drivin me nuts.

Stroke, stroke, stroke, stroke… the pounding anthem plays. "Where was I going…" ah yes, I was heading to (class, my bike, a friend's house, to get my mail, to the club, or a place to eat). As this anthem goes, I know that it is time for me to move my feet, to head in the direction of the place in front of me. Sometimes, however, I lose my place on the page and have to re-focus to see and remember exactly where I was going. The drum beat sets the rhythm and in percussion I moved in the direction that I state. This level of attention to movement might seem a bit out of place for some, yet for me it is quite the norm. If I have something to distract myself with, then it doesn't seem to consume my attention quite as much, this action of walking and moving to my next place where I get to do more things that occupy my attention (play if you will, most things that occupy my attention at some level become a game to me, otherwise, they are boring). Beat, beat, beat, I hear another beat moving next to me. The first time this happened for me is probably before I can remember, I do not know for sure, the first time I had the chance and experience to feel out what I have taught the various pieces of me before moving them together was a vacation not too long ago, I flew a long distance and stayed in a couple homes. One of the homes I could feel the people of the house around me, I could hear their beats. Something like a heartbeat, more like a symphony of pounding melody. Not to lesson by describing this to ears that may not have a reference to recreate the action in their own thoughts, I could describe what happened as a symphony of the bodies that night. Now it seems that I can shift this beat as my own walking rhythm when I am moving and usually know the place of my foot before it falls. This beat of others is becoming something I can grasp as well. To say this is interesting and something outside of what many would even believe or want to grasp is to say too little. It cannot be imagined. It can only be proven to one's self. It can only be the Tao. It can only be action through in-action and the association of others that have strong ears or minds or whatever allows access to the strings that connect all of us. When you notice a specific vibration in the works, you notice a flower blooming, is what it could be described as. You can give this flower the source or pure light that is enerizagation. The flower can bloom stronger if it is capable of receiving the light that is being shown. If you can imagine or are even familiar with such a concept you can almost see in your mind's eye the bloom and the circular flow that is spinning in many directions yet all throughout is organized and continues to pour in on itself.
Not only is this symphony something beautiful but just like the orchestra that you sit and enjoy for moments of time. This choasymphony of brilliant sound can be breathtaking and might be something that you want to step away from for a minute sometimes even longer periods of time. Many people I think have walls or filters up that allow them to not even have to take breaks from the music. Either they never hear it or they only hear a few instruments or specific notes from those instruments at a time. Once I tune into it and it seems that I am almost constantly wired to hear it, I must take breaks every now and then again. It is truly inundating. It seems, and this next part has yet to be proved, but I deliver the message from one flower to the next, and it appears without trying to.
Thank you for taking the time to read this story about the life of a man. Hope you enjoyed the perspective. Soon there will be a Part II to this story.

For some time now I've been concerned, nah, that is such a weak word, terrified, about our government, our economy, and our ability to seek happiness (you do know that this is one of our liberties as a citizen of the US, right?). We see over and over the government thinks that if they aren't removing a right or creating control where it wasn't before, they are wasting their time in office (could they be doing more besides just being a politician... didn't Representatives and Senators back in the day also Farm, or Teach or some other job that actually made their real money?).

In this interesting time we also see people sitting back into the lifestyle of the content... yet they aren't reaching for happiness and instead are making sure that they are just better than the next... not really looking inside anymore (would they run in fear for how empty the space is?). I guess that since I am alive and no one is taking my home I should consider myself happy or lucky.

When someone responds to you, don't you expect some form of certainty in their reply? To me, if they are debating or selling themselves to me, I like to see a full spec sheet. What is important... none of the fluff.

All that being said - this article by The Rolling Stone was quite interesting about Palin and I will quote my favorite section as it is right now.

here is a linky: http://www.rollingstone.com/poalitics/story/23318320/mad_dog_palin/

"The great insight of the Palin VP choice is that huge chunks of American voters no longer even demand that their candidates actually have policy positions; they simply consume them as media entertainment, rooting for or against them according to the reflexive prejudices of their demographic, as they would for reality-show contestants or sitcom characters. Hicks root for hicks, moms for moms, born-agains for born-agains. Sure, there was politics in the Palin speech, but it was all either silly lies or merely incidental fluffery buttressing the theatrical performance. A classic example of what was at work here came when Palin proudly introduced her Down-syndrome baby, Trig, then stared into the camera and somberly promised parents of special-needs kids that they would "have a friend and advocate in the White House." This was about a half-hour before she raised her hands in triumph with McCain, a man who voted against increasing funding for special-needs education.

Palin's charge that "government is too big" and that Obama "wants to grow it" was similarly preposterous. Not only did her party just preside over the largest government expansion since LBJ, but Palin herself has been a typical Bush-era Republican, borrowing and spending beyond her means. Her great legacy as mayor of Wasilla was the construction of a $15 million hockey arena in a city with an annual budget of $20 million; Palin OK'd a bond issue for the project before the land had been secured, leading to a protracted legal mess that ultimately forced taxpayers to pay more than six times the original market price for property the city ended up having to seize from a private citizen using eminent domain. Better yet, Palin ended up paying for the fucking thing with a 25 percent increase in the city sales tax. But in her speech, of course, Palin presented herself as the enemy of tax increases, righteously bemoaning that "taxes are too high" and Obama "wants to raise them."

Yeah this part is awesome as well:

"Then there are the salacious tales of Palin's swinging-meat-cleaver management style, many of which seem to have a common thread: In addition to being ensconced in a messy ethics investigation over her firing of the chief of the Alaska state troopers (dismissed after refusing to sack her sister's ex-husband), Palin also fired a key campaign aide who had an affair with a friend's wife. More ominously, as mayor of Wasilla, Palin tried to fire the town librarian, Mary Ellen Emmons, who had resisted pressure to censor books Palin found objectionable.

Then there's the God stuff: Palin belongs to a church whose pastor, Ed Kalnins, believes that all criticisms of George Bush "come from hell," and wondered aloud if people who voted for John Kerry could be saved. Kalnins, looming as the answer to Obama's Jeremiah Wright, claims that Alaska is going to be a "refuge state" for Christians in the last days, last days which he sometimes speaks of in the present tense. Palin herself has been captured on video mouthing the inevitable born-again idiocies, such as the idea that a recent oil-pipeline deal was "God's will." She also described the Iraq War as a "task that is from God" and part of a heavenly "plan." She supports teaching creationism and "abstinence only" in public schools, opposes abortion even for victims of rape, has denied the science behind global warming and attends a church that seeks to convert Jews and cure homosexuals."

Palin hasn't been too worried about federal taxes as governor of a state that ranks number one in the nation in federal spending per resident ($13,950), even as it sits just 18th in federal taxes paid per resident ($5,434). That means all us taxpaying non-Alaskans spend $8,500 a year on each and every resident of Palin's paradise of rugged self-sufficiency. Not that this sworn enemy of taxes doesn't collect from her own: Alaska currently collects the most taxes per resident of any state in the nation."

Does that seem a little two faced or maybe just someone that doesn't pay attention to the facts? Is either better?

Make sure you talk about facts with friends... not the color of tie or the designer of the dress of the candidates. What they wear or even what they say means shit - it is their actions that dictate the response we can expect from them.

Oh and life is doing okay / better for me, it looks like we (The Lan Party) are going to have one of our clients re-sign a contract labor form with us, another client just put a down payment on a website we are building, my brother is making good progress to settling himself back in Columbia, MO, and I am still enrolled in classes (and passing most if not all of them).

Much love to all my friends,

Jim

Just putting that out there.  I might try to reason and post a bunch of thoughts about how Palin isn't all she is cracked up to be and that McCain does NOT deserve the office but might be an excellent war general or something along those lines.  If anything the President of the US should try to talk our lead generals out of war at all costs instead of thinking that we must use it as an alternative to peace.

I've included a link to a site that I think is a great resource for the more liberal minded individual and anyone that wants to get into contact with the political powers that be in our great nation.  I love the USA and I would really love to see it move in directions that helped the populous instead of hinder it.

Some time ago I read a writing that was about how a girl had someone that she cared about take their life. It was a most humbling read because it was rather simple and happy yet, back in the underwritings you saw how much was outside of her control. This moved me and I felt a certain desire to reach out and connect with her.

Pepsi (name changed for anonymity),

Who decides how we get to influence those around us? This question defines the helplessness that one can feel when they meet a wall and want to assist someone but find their energies funnel into a void. The void is an object that has no immediate affect on the person that has it, but it works like a black hole for all of the light that circles around the one needing it. It would seem that the moth in this case, draws the light to it instead of seeking out the candle or the light, the candle throws its light towards our friend the moth. The luminescence of the room even convenes and collects, correcting the actions and methods of the moth.

Many are the candles for each moth, for even if the moth thinks there is no one seeing it because it can't see itself or whatever other blinder our friend the moth has fuzzed over to be more happy with it's environment there are many that continually throw their radiance towards the moth. Generally a moth or any other moving object can really only be controlled by one main force at a time. A planet is generally controlled by one major sun that it orbits around... it would be a rather un-natural orbit if say there were two suns that a planet were to circle around.

In this, the moth has to want to take in the light's energy. If for some reason they are looking elsewhere or aren't absorbing what is shinning all around them, then who made it so they weren't observing? This would be the moth's responsibility. If the moth can't desire help, it the moth further, thinks there is nothing wrong with its current course, then you will see it continually vier off course. The course that is being vier off would be the one that could be most beneficial to the helpless. No one is truly helpless there are just different levels of correct power that an individual will posses. They share this light, this energy with those around them and it important that they do not burn themselves out by shining it as well as that they don't burn so bright, they are not able to see other lights around them.

I knew a moth that was a rare find. She had all of the decorations of the loving respectful princess. She spread her wings to those around her and encouraged people to fly on the currents that she found. She was good at finding them too. Constantly with the helpful mind, yet not too strong that she couldn't be helped. This was how it was when I first saw this beauty.

As we flew on together, wings flapping and fluttering in love and happiness we both ran into our own walls, our own lessons to grow from. The greatest thing about this process is that we encouraged each other to continue afterwards. We recommended a course to assist with the future development, we desired to see the other move in ways that assisted themselves. This is what makes the snuffing out of this one so hard to believe and even harder to understand. There was no way that I couldn't believe it happened. At the funeral with all of our friends, family members crying and holding each other with caring sobbing arms you knew this wasn't something you could ignore, you couldn't convince yourself that this hadn't happen. It would be nice if you could imagine it, it would be heaven if you could actually say with certainty that the horrid news that you had been informed of, was not true. Friends that just barely knew and others that knew very well the intimacy that we experienced with each other were there to give their support. Still I wished that I would have never gotten that call at 3 am in April. Wishing won't change what has transpired... that I've learned. Also in the very important lessons of life, I've come to know that you can't help those that don't accept the help. Each must help themselves before they can help someone else. If you don't have the power to change yourself, then you don't have the power to affect someone else in a way other than how they will learn from you.

One of the most painful things about this is that it was a few months before this moth was snuffed out, she fluttered down to Columbia and got me a card, got me flowers and thanked me for a simple little computer thing I had helped out with. When I think about how she had reached out to me after I had closed a rather hard door on her I hate myself for my actions. It started a long time ago. Running down the street, my parents had gotten divorced some three or four years ago. I am only in high school and know a couple of the girls down the street and they were playing some basketball. There is another girl with them this time, a rather cute girl with aqua, blue, eye liner. Add in the blond hair, cute expressions, and introverted/extroverted persona and you have quite a sweet moth / flame that I wanted to fly towards at great speeds. All the same, I had only hung out with her, Amanda, for a short time and it wasn't until I was back from going to Kansas City, living in the rave dance culture, experiencing mind blowing journeys through subconscious through and life, and learning a few things about taking care of yourself and others that I meet her again in downtown Columbia. What was interesting is that I barely knew it was her, and she recognized me and asked if I was Jim, the guy that lived up the street from Kim and Amy. Yes I answer as I finally realize where I know this beautiful face from. We exchanged numbers right then and there and started chatting on aim that night.

Ah, America Online never knew they were the ability for two lovers to meet like that, but the interwebs were only too happy to allow our mutual interest to blossom. It was only a few nights later that we hung out together, watch Hackers if I remember right and then a couple nights after that I took her and Kim (different Kim from before... this one is for better or worse definitions, her sister, and a great one at that) out to Applebee's for dinner. I had picked out this great new Kenneth Cole sweater which I wore and still save for only some of the best occasions to wear out. Soon our romance was in full swing and we were experiencing the pleasures and bumps from any new relationship. All the same, we were smitten with ourselves. She helped me learn a thing or two about keeping work at work and home at home. Bringing home the days frustrations to the one that you want to harmonize in joy with tends to break down the happiness that could otherwise be felt. Such a simple thing would be no big deal otherwise, but for me, this was something that I hadn't learned yet and thankfully she was there and willing to teach me instead of throwing me out of her heart. This woman in a young woman's figure, to be honest she was about 18 when we started dating, yet she had the mentality of someone that was 23 at times. All the same, she had the youthful zeal that someone that won't fully grow up keeps at their side. This childlike energy is a beautiful thing for it allows many to overcome huge obstacles because the adult view only sees what it knows, the child is ready to discern that which it doesn't know and enjoy that which it does.

We almost won the costume contest at the Booty Halloween party in STL. We were second place with the guy from Fear and Loathing in Los Vegas winning – he had the part down to a science... completely acting the part. We both helped a number of friends through their own troubles and tried to help a few friends that didn't want it and as it might've turned out today, didn't need it. Since I was quite adept at the computer stuffs, Mandie picked up on what I knew and grew with it. She turned into quite the gamer and from what I know, was a fearsome opponent in Halo, WoW, and Quake (she could give me a run and thats saying something). We survived each of us slipping up on our monogamy and stayed together.

We actually broke up twice, and then got engaged. Why did I ever let her go? If you release the bird and it flies back, is it not a better bird? The engagement lasted for quite a few months and she got herself a nice job in the mall at a store that really fit her style very well and I continued to work at Socket Internet and continued to live with my Dad. Mandie lived with her Mom and we were both rather happy about the whole thing. Eventually though, I noticed a slight change in her responsiveness to me. How much she reached out to me. Unfortunately I knew what this would mean and that I should let her pursue herself as that is where her mind is. If I were to hold her in and keep her where she was, it would just get stagnant and she would want to later break free. It is not loving to hold someone back unless they are going to hurt themselves. That statement might have more truth than even I know, but as I also know, the past is something that has happened, I can't go back and change it.

For lessons to be learned from any experience is to achieve a consciousness that many don't comprehend. It is vital that anyone attempt to take something away from the experience other than remorse and regret. Those feelings do not allow forward movement. Those emotions bottle up and destroy the host. For me to take something away, I suppose I should simply be calling and communicating with my friends more. Stay in touch, more. I do this already but as it happens, I don't really run after my friends to stay in contact with them as they tend to orbit around me to a degree. I might have to change my orbit a bit to realign with any of them, but it is a pretty easy thing really. Especially since none of the orbits are a bond-relationship orbit. Brothers and sisters I have now, not a mate. While I am on the discovery path to find my female counterpart, I will let that one be drawn to me like the moth to the flame. If it is meant to be, then I will be to her like a moth flying to her flame.

Yeah, I haven't posted cool stuff in a while... but I haven't been reading much news and I don't mean to sound like a downer here... but it's not the best news recently right?  Please don't hate, appreciate.  Well, here is some cool news... that either we should've already known or should've happened years ago.  Shoulda-woulda-coulda.  It's a collection of directions I see happening that actually could help us save lives, save our environment, or get to more worlds than just this planet (if we don't start working and continuing to work at it, it won't happen, there is progress to be made).

Ok let me get this right.  Stuff that works on a genetic modification level and makes more of itself is NOT alive?  How does that make sense, you see, it doesn't.  The teachers, scientists didn't want to be scared of something they didn't understand and labeled it is not alive, because, how could it be... it's too small.  I think we used to say that about water when we looked at it and now we know about amoebas and stuff, golly that changed a lot.  Same reason why there's nothing out in space.

Back to the "fact" that Star Trek could never happen (don't say never kids, you could go blind).  We get UFO sightings all the time, try reading www.drudgereport.com - quite a lot of news that they didn't want to get reported showing up on there.  There is almost a 100% chance that another race won't even touch us with someraceelse's reproductive organ until they see us with at least marginally equal to better equipment in which case they had better try to learn what we know and forge some form of alliance or they could get whipped out.  It is the same thing the US and other 1st world countries do for some of the Pygmies and other indigenous tribes around the globe... you leave them alone to learn and progress until there is a REASON why you should pull their head out of their ass.  Man I am feeling my oats tonight....  instead of just trying to build a nuclear bomb.... why don't we just build a nano-black bomb.  Hell, we could build a macro-black bomb and threaten the whole solar system and see if another interstellar race is smart enough to pick up its energy signature (we use those to tell what kind of star is out there) and stop us.  Or we could try traveling on the most advanced engines we can find (wait... that's Star Trek again... DANG!) and propagate the universe with our offspring!

This one is too easy.  Has male ego written all over it, not that I have a problem with a healthy male ego.  When people stop caring about the result that get attributed or branch over and down to our fellows, they have looked in the mirror too long.  They are following their ideal blindly and not noticing possibilities they are snuffing out, destroying futures.  Isn't being human part of creating those possibilities?  Oh, but only the females must keep it alive, we just bring home the money.  This is not a bright future.  It is a sad bit of mental disposition that many are in.

Thanks for reading some important pieces of recent news.  Please bring these topics up in conversation with the person, Joe, Jane, Bob, or Betty that you end up standing next to.  See what they think, it could be different from you, but it could be interesting too.  Its about our life and our future and its looking brighter and brighter, I just might need shades.

One thing I have to say as the son (Nuclear Engineer) and grand-son (Mechanical Engineer) and future Engineer himself (Computer Science Engineer) - everything is relative (go Google Einstein's Theory of Relativity and if that is too much for you, read Brian Greene's Fabric of the Cosmos - brilliant book).  Somewhere in my reasoning, I have a feeling it will take a realization of this relativity (basically that someone can have the same perspective but a different viewpoint and BOTH be correct) before we realize, we don't have to fight, we can leave this planet, and we can explore this playground that is unfolding before us.  We get to see people sometimes bring up that we need to change or that change is coming, and that is what this out there thinker has reasoned.

This guy, Dattareya (which is so similar to the Japanese Dattebayo - "Believe It" - which when I think about it... is so damn similar to our "determine" or "determined" - to think and believe) Siva Baba, has reasoning's that we are going to be moving into an accelerated age of inter-personal development.  Many Hindus, Buddhists, and I am pretty sure Taoists, believe that there is a concept called social consciousness.  How aware "we" are of everything around "us" as a whole and responding back as a whole - no separation of identity like we are so used to.  If you think about it, from the BC to the AD we've been slowly moving towards this change, why would it ever stop even if it is accelerating already?  Don't bodies in motion tend to stay in motion (those of us that have studied physics... yes)?  Would be cool if what the Mayans, the Egyptians, and quite a few OLD cultures said would be true (and funny enough, it happens around a time when our Sun is as powerful as EVER - or so the article says, I want to see more that speaks along the same currents).

Read for a happier day!

Dattatreya Siva Baba, the YouTube Guru, predicts a new age of enlightenment starting on this month's full moon

Infinite sadness, you need to find a new home. This chateau has gotten old and is tired of its tenet. You don't even have to grab your things, just go. I'm going to leave on a bike ride today, and when I get back, you had better be no where nearby. Not trying to hate or anything like that, but you've tread on me enough trouble and problems.

Breath of fresh air bring with you a new life energy.

I've quit smoking.

I've quit smoking 3 days now. 3 whole days without a cigarette. I'm looking for a lot more of an emotional change than just that, I want to start working out, making money for ME, and let some life courses finally finish their tourney. Oh, I guess since I have the weight machine in the house the working out thing should be a bit easier right? RIGHT. Helps SO much to have someone that is also motivated. In light if that, if there are any friends that even read these and are interested in a FREE gym with a bench press (about >150 lbs) and pull down, pull up, etc, you should call me.

The email went off to one of the hiring aids at MU, and I am going to contact Gerbes today about that job, in addition I am gonna see if I can get Dreamcater to commit to hiring me instead of just giving me tiny little computer jobs (he owes me about 3 hours now, but I want a job there, not 1 or 2 hours a week computer work).

Wish me luck coming up here, usually these blocks fall into place faster, I guess the universe wants to test me out. I will NOT borrow more money from my father if I can help it. Keeping some honor, keeping some of my valor, keeping some of my manhood is going to happen.

Best wishes to all, be well,
J5

This is how I often think about trying to interact with that girl, the other lady, any woman.  My mind goes into hyper-drive instead of mac.  Mac, no not like the Mac'n'Cheese, but like the Big-Mac, with the secret sauce and double layers.  Its like it skips all of the natural urges to grab her by the hair and drag her to the nearest cave and show her what we are both missing.  I mean, yeah, you can't do that any more.  No caves!  Least none that wouldn't give you a bad cold after you dragged her in there and had your way with her.  Near as I know, the clinics around here don't react well to people in loin clothes or men dragging their women around by their hair.  By I suppose it couldn't hurt to try right?

If my interactory drive shaft heehee, I said shaft would put the torque were it needs to be and just tell her that I think she has better things to do besides standing there and talking to herself, then maybe I would have a cave bitch.  Really, was anyone else even listening or was she just filling the air with wasted noise.

Yes, I'm kidding about beating up your woman, and no I don't think a woman is a man piece of property, but I do think that men have a certain moral conscience around protecting that which they care about.  Whither they vocalize it in a chest beating way or they walk on the outside of the side walk, that is what they do.  Men that don't do this are not men, they are boys.

In the end, the one finds you, kind of a both sides to that - and some swooning to be noticed and received, but after that it is a shared path, and a care for either other, stronger than that of friends, yet different at the same time.  While I am not there right now, quite single to be precise, I have been there before.  Made very happy and got to make very happy, shared to and shared from, it was quite nice and at the same time it was enjoyable work.  I was content.  Can a man ask for more, sure you can, but why should you, be happy with what you have.

That is such a funny thing to say when you get to the age where you are so ready to procreate you can feel it in your teeth, but you are so single you feel it in your balls.

As I listen to my www.Pandora.com radio station "Chunky House" (look for jonny5@nova-labs.net and you can see my stations here) which is currently belting out "So Flute" by St. Germain I am thankful that this internet ad supported site isn't trying to charge me for the service they share for free. I'm also glade that I don't have to pay MORE to my internet provider Mediacom just to listen to this feed as it works from that site. Are there chances that this utopian environment could change, you betcha Buckaroo Bonzai.

What if you did have to pay more? What if you have AT&T and you want to view www.google.com but you have to pay AT&T another .10 cents just to connect to the website that normally you can see on any system for free or the normal cost of the internet there? That would be terrible! Think of having to pay an additional rate on top of what you have to pay now, just to see some of the sites you are already used to. That bill was luckily stopped short and provisions have been made into legislation around the 700 Mhz band that has to be open access to any provider in the data sector, you just pay for the access to the 700 Mhz band with your device, no per use additional fees. Google made that possible.

Now we have to worry about the Telcos (Verizon, AT&T, Century Tel, Sprint, MediaCom, etc) giving the government information about us and our communication just because the government feels like it. I ask you, why you should give up your rights of privacy just because someone feels like it is a good idea? Who do you trust as your power of attorney, Bush or you? Your brother or sister or the random guy off the street? Generally, people want to have a certain blanket of privacy around them and that is why we kinda came over here in the first place isn't it? So we could get people to stop telling us what to do and how to do it. Back then it was more religion than anything else, but now it is about anything that might move "left" or "right", liberal or conservative.

Good Idea vs. Bad Idea... its pretty simple ppl!

Government is supposed to be the thing that allows you to sleep well at night because we don't have another country abusing our rights as citizens of this land. They have certain trade agreements with other countries that allow us to have our wants and desires within healthy timeframes.

You know what, I am going to list several things I think a Government should do and should not do… some of these are relevant to what is changing around us.

The Government that you might vote towards does not tell your kids what to believe in. In southern states they have managed to get "Intelligent Design" put into the classrooms. That type of concept is taught in your various religions and if you want to believe that the world was made in 7 days literally, that's your bag.

The Government that you might vote towards does not inquire information from you but unless they have probable cause that allows them to get a warrant for such information or you. Yet Bush has been the one to press oh so hard to have this NOW retro-active immunity bill into Congress, succeeded and now is fighting to get it through the House.

The Government that you might vote towards has a profitable and community oriented health care system that allows its citizens to be taken care of on many levels. We have to look out at what Hilary and Obama have on the slate as well as McCain (war monger?)

If you feel some of these, or any of these, or even your completely separate ideas, you should call your Senator or Representative today and just voice your opinion. If this doesn't work, we should all think about moving.

www.pfaw.org – People For the American Way (they are a Democratic biased site that tracks how things are going in the Judicial, Federal, and Congressional parts of our lives)

For many years, thousands actually, we have foraged and hunted for our food to preserve our lives and our futures.  The days of our times have changed this mannerism slightly to include a hunt to your local Wal-Mart to grab some groceries. Along the journey you have to be weary of the bright and loud masta-cop that obviously has evolved into something that shouldn't be eaten. I've heard the soft, yet very spicy, inside of this semi-rare (not rare enough) beast of the field but I think I'll stick with the items that don't move quickly or at all. The bad thing about these specific beasts is that they get REALLY loud and in your face if you move to fast on our fortified trails of today – apparently 110 mph isn't something they consider normal – but that is another story. Now, once you have found this trading post, this jungle of the retail nation you may notice some of the wildlife there. Keep an eye open for the saber tooth walrus as well as the stack-climber monkeys that live in the foliage isles of that retail-jungle.  It is thanks to modern advancements such as the perishable gatherer (also known as a shopping cart) that we don't have to make such large groups to gather the sustenance to prolong our lives. Back in the day we had to bring weapons, take down a huge mastodon (a mastodon will NOT take you down for moving too quickly – that is the masta-cop's m.o. but they will flatten you for being too circumflex) or maybe some mountain goat and we have kept advancing further and further as time has gone on.

You know how to vibe?

That is not a question, it is a statement of life.  When you enter a mix of persons, vibing is one of the bawler ways of entertaining your fellow participants.  Wouldn't you like to be entertained?


Thought so.

In vibing you should share the movitavtive energy that is cultivating around the room.  In fact, you would like to be a fan for that energy, getting those embers glowing and roasting.

BBQ with all the fixings, someone even brought those deviled eggs w/the red paprika spriklins... god those are satans gift.  Evil little convections of sweet and tart.  So good you can eat just one, better have fun, eat some.

So I've been working .. servers for a little bit, got two of them running my house now, Ubuntu w/Daper Drake (8.04 and all that) and have that new pricey Promis RAID-6 card that I gotta make sure I can use all the features on (RAID expansion... oh the hottness).  Then some websites are finally coming to forms of furition - www.thelanparty.net and www.midwestmassive.com (actually the forums more than anything - http://forums.midwestmassive.com/index.php) as well as my own www.nova-labs.net got redone with some CSS and XHTML complaint code.  Its all a part of the culviation of vibe.  I'd like to open the flood gates and pour the vibe out on everyone.


Can't wait to see so much of this happen.  Much love to all, peas and karrots.