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that I've been doing better?

I am doing better.  Two jobs, those are the ones that pay me every two weeks like clockwork.  It's kinda of nice.  The other job is for the boss that I live with now.  He's been one of the coolest people in my life, doing things that I would've never expected him to.  Seeing a life and a future that's akin to an age old friend; one even from previous lifetimes.  This makes him not only a brother, but a father, and a friend.  It's great, but once you have flown the coup, you must stay outside the nest.  My real Dad wants me to live with him but to change the fiber of who I am to accomplish that.  Not what I am willing to do.

Ya, this ones not going to be all fun and games.  Kind of wish it was, hopefully I can end it that way.

What are you willing to do to get what you want?

Change your religion to get desired result in life?

Change who you are to be better accepted?

Change your look so people feel more at ease around you?

Once I learned that I had a certain way that I appreciated, it became my future and my say on how things develop.

This is true for anyone realizing method and the way.  It is you whom you must be and not that which people wish to form you into.  Surveying their logic to see why they gave such advice, applying positive suggestion where possible, can help you see you might agree with their point of view.  If you can't comprehend their motive then pray-tell that they would listen to you.

I can honestly say, if someone is not going to listen to me, then I may never listen to them.  When taught to communicate, I learned that one must ask or illicit information on the topic that the person is talking about to ensure they know that you are interested.  I find this funny as most people don't do this.  They generally give a synopsis for their thought on the matter in a matter of fact sort of way.  Like their statement has total relevance and that their opinion is in fact correct.

Your parts are nothing more than the parts of our whole and you are merely looking at your arm and calling it all of your body.  You are not looking in the mirror.  Imagine a whole universe seeing itself in reflection and how it would be able to achieve and understand of what it was viewing.  Singularity.  Such a concept is mathematically difficult to comprehend and even further in human understanding to really know the state of matter that would be produced in such an effect.

In my search to better myself I have finally been contacted by my first head hunter.  A man contacted me via email and I responded quickly and surely.  We are working to move myself into a company near the Lake of the Ozarks in Missouri.  It sounds like quite a wonderful offer.  Several servers, the network, security, system resource management, and user support tier ii or iii probably.  The offer has been made to get me certifications and other glorious wondrous rewards.  May this door lead to a great opening and forward movement in my life.  I wish to use this opening to dawn new futures of my lives and make this world a better place.  As settlers of old set out into Oklahoma to claim their land and stake their name for the future of their family, I too wish to bring about all their is and can be for me.  Selfishly, I want.  Gladly I will give.

The habitated space between from whence you left to hence you arrive begins with meditated thought.

It could be said that, in the end, is how much you did with how little.

The sunlight billows into the airs
Stirring thought throughout,
The buzz I feel as waves that
Prickle and tickle the hairs.

Intelligence as its own energy
Moves through the warming bodies
Degrees bringing together
Acute understanding synergy.

The populous courts with empty
Judgment for none can perceive
The true motivation or
Have divine coordination pity.

Draw into me you, make my heart
Warm with the growth and understanding
Of eons and worlds of thought,
Compassion, and care from the start.

What is important is not that you give everything,
Instead that you don't hold everything to yourself.
What is important is not that you love everything,
Instead that you don't love only yourself.
What is important is not that you wish all to all,
Instead that you don't only think of you.

Open heart invites love
Open lives welcome care
Open ideas share wealth

For you I give me openly
For us I share unconditionally
For all I wish only the best.

Class,

I have a rather interesting idea.  It is the idea of a better way of communicating extremely long distances.  I am not going to immediately go to my idea as I like to ramble a bit and I am figuring that not everyone will understand all the processes or the seriousness involved with this caliber of an idea.

For starters we have been using electromagnetic signals, basically light, to transmit information currently.  These signals are actually slow.  See here.

Radio signals (electromagnetic waves) go at approximately (in vacuum) 186,411.358 miles/sec (300000km/sec) and this is the same speed as light.  It would take about 4 to almost 22 minutes to transmit only the smallest piece of information from Earth to Mars depending on the distance they were from each other in our immediate Universe, SOL (even that is a very minute piece of our total SOL Solar System we are a part of).

Lets compute that as a part of transferring the data across different parts of our Universe.

Time for light from the Sun to hit Earth - 7 minutes.

Time for light from the Sun to hit Pluto - 5.5 hours.

Diameter of the Milky-Way = 100,000 light-years (same description of light)

Diameter of the Universe = 93,000,000,000 light-years (how many years it would take light at its constant speed to go from one side to the other)

Warning, this image will take forever to load, but gives a interesting impression on the understanding required to conceive of such a huge space.

Okay, we have a pretty good idea that there isn't any intelligent life within so many thousand light years of our immediate vicinity (this is a VERY highly debated item and as such I just throw out a number that sounds like they aren't next door).  It would be luck that a signal from them hit us anyway as we are moving around quite a bit within our own Solar System and Galaxy when it comes right down to it (a lot - read some of these articles that you find by size of the solar system and such on Google... incredible reads).

Yet we spend millions on huge antenna to listen and see what signals make it to us on the ground.  Does this seem stupid?  Actually, no, the idea isn't stupid, the method is however.  At least I think so.

Okay, what method would be good?

Glad you asked.  A Quantum Entangling Antenna.  A device that has a quantum synchronous variable frequency (using quantum tangled particles as a dial to tune the antenna to various objects out in space).  What we would be looking for is an overall device oscillation akin to what the object we are dialing in has.  Obviously some way to use this antenna to drive a signal generator and try out some of the data it is sending us.

Why a spoon brother? (Quote from Robin Hood - Real question: Why use a Quantum Entangled Frequency Antenna?)  The idea is that if you can tune quantum entanglement then you could tune to a specific frequency of entanglement.  Once you have your object tuned to it, you can pick up state changes or environment changes around it or within it.  This would be like opening a worm hole that you could tune to another worm hole anywhere in the galaxy.  What would come out of it?  Who knows?  The other part of this is, if you could do this, then you could use your Quantum Device like a radio and broadcast out information.  The neat thing.  It would go EVERYWHERE at ONCE.  Or so the idea begins that way.  Since with Quantum Entanglement is immediate, anything happening to one item, happens immediately to the other, you can just forget about the huge difference is distance between two objects and you could traverse HUGE distances in zero time.  Faster than light information travel.  This would be a MASSIVE information and technological breakthrough for our human civilization.

I have several hypothesis with this.

One, Black Holes have a Quantum nature that we haven't begun to look into.

Two, Quantum Entanglement exists at the heart or is part of the Black Hole nature.  Quantum Forces with some very specific forms of X-Ray Light are the few things that can get out of a Black Hole.

Three, Black Holes might be a form of intelligent life.

Four, if Intelligent Life exists out there, they would use Quantum Antenna to communicate with the rest of the Intelligent Life out there since it would be an immediate form of communication.

Now, who wants to start building one?

After talking to a physics learned man, I have more or less found out that there are about 12 different sub-atomic particles and of those, the different micro-quantum mechanics have to be exactly the same for the atoms that are being considered to be entangled (more correctly, for entanglement to be true - MANY NANOSCOPIC properties must be exactly the same along with other truths (we don't know yet)). As this is the case, for us to tune these aspects of an individual atom, for us to change the properties on the fly for the individual parts of an atom, we must progress MUCH father in our understanding of such matter. In other words, we barely understand protons, yet we used them for about all of our advanced nuclear and data related items.

Kind of like traveling on ice, but never understanding that if we melted it, we could drink it.

It seems that alcohol is my conduit to better blogging; maybe just blogging in general anymore.  I don't seem to have anything to say otherwise.  Please be prepared for the worst and best of my meandering through intellect and reason.

 Why don't I have a girlfriend?  If I knew the answer to this, I think I might be due the Pulzter Prize.  Thats right, I would have solved a writting and reason piece of the cosmos that made the world a better place.  I don't know.  This in it's self might be the answer.

Words of reason and lessons of life have let me know that I should pursue all and take what meets me the most.  As such I have tried this method and I might say, I have had the worst success in this lately.  The age of my generation seems to not want what meets them the most, so how are they in themselves going to cross the intersteallar boundries to meet what seems to meet them well?  Can't answer that.  Wish I could.  So it seems that life tells you to go after everthing or go after nothing.  These are polar opposites and in the least, nothing in the same.

 We are going to interrupt this train of thought to mention that there is a very specific difference between friends and partners.  Friends don't care.  Friends just give.  They often know what is in your better judgement even when you don't and are often the first to suggest it.  These people are the ones that you should trust in.

That is not to say that you can't trust in your partner, because, if it worked out as effectively as it could, your friend became your partner.  Many can't handle this, and so, I move back to how do you find a partner?

Wow.  If I knew the answer to this I think I would make the world spin and life continue happening, I would be the saving grace to marriage in general and my spot as a Wedding DJ would be secured for life.  Wouldn't that be nice?  Yeah, DJing in general is pretty cool, but being the matchmaker and master of ceremonies would be the bomb.  Since I like solving puzzels and fixing problems this could be the greatest crecendo known to mankind save making cold fusion happen.

How do you match yourself, that person that you are with someone else that you don't know yet.  Maybe even someone else that is searching as well and you seem to have hard time alinging yourself with?  Ah, this is impossible.  (ok audience, at this point I have turely started talking to myself)  Is it, is it really impossible.  Isn't that how people of old made it happen?  We had pre-selected marriages.  These were generally between families that knew each other and said their children should be married.  Right.  That totally still happens (it still does, but in other countries... so I am left to myself and whomever else thinks I am worthwhile).

 Hmm.  I make a good point.  Whomever thinks I am worthwhile.  Since I do my best to be as carring, givening, capable, and even-till as possible, this doesn't allow for the greatest selection of girls to think I am worthwhile.  They all (sorry I am generalizing here, but, I'm drunk, you are going to have to deal with it) want someone who actually doesn't care for them up front, but somewhere between 2 and last.

Is this my selflessness kicking me in the ass?  Yes, it is.

God damn does that hurt the inner morals.

How do I care for my partner if I don't put her first?  (since you care for yourself you put your partner first because you are already there?)  Ah, that almost works, but honestly, you have to care for yourself first or your partner will intrensicly know that you don't have a backbone and will go for someone that treats them like shit cause obviously they care for someone else more first.

 Ah, why didn't I see this earlier?  Treat your partner like shit and she will know you care for you first and THEN her and she will feel comfortable.

 FUCK THAT.

 I want to be my god damn forsaken self when I date a lady and take care of her and thereby take care of myself.  Not like I won't feed myself and then her, I gotta eat damnit, but fuck.  What if I do listen to her and her issues.  This does NOT make me her bff, but her partner that knows the masculine side of how the cards are played.

Log of late, you have done okay.  You are at least not living with your Dad and are working to take care of yourself.  This is a complicated task and you are working as you best can to make ends meet.

 Thank you self,
I appreciate your efforts!

There is no XBox 360 Open Source Media Plugin for Linux.  I found this out after hours of labors compiling and sorting of system development files on my CentOS 5.2 Server.

You can not, currently, share your library as you see fit with your XBox 360. This thing really is great for playing media and it allows you to kill your friends, and get really great titles played like, Halo 3. Needless to say HAWX is also a huge favorite and Quake 4, but I think my destruction power is best delt on a PC with that one.

This started with the words Open Source right? Why's this guy salivating over titles. Heh, you said salivating.

I spent about four hours getting Adobe CS4 Suite, Office 2007, and the rest of a Profile setup on a customer's computer. Yeah, I like multitasking. It rocks. While trying to compile MediaTomb. Which really is an amazing program. If you own a PS3. (We have mutiny in the ranks!)

Seriously to any of you PS3 owners out there, this thing is MADE for you. Your Linux library of media will be at your dual joystick fingertips in probable surround sound and hdmi none the less.

Guess that means trying to negotiate with uShare again - doesn't share the library correctly, uses an older form of ffmpeg to run the transcoding, needs to distinctify between video, music, and library sections.

When building MediaTomb from scratch, it is especially difficult to read the how to written for Ubuntu and apply it to a CentOS system. The package names are completely different and honestly, I am running X64... it makes a huge difference and finding the programs being called or getting the source and compiling them is a chore. My guess is that MediaTomb needs to check into the hack or patch that someone made for uShare and allows the XBox to know that it is a valid UPNP Media device on the network (probably a ping back or some other token that allows recognition).

One of the custom compiled code pieces is actually called TwoLame. Wows. They have LAME which you have to use when you get Audacity working on a computer and often on Linux systems. It is an Open Source MP3 format that allows for huge compression and decompression of audio streams that used to be 150 to 200 MBs and now are 4 and 5 MBs, and then the modern day iPod. TwoLame was necessary for MediaTomb to be able to play DVD content and transcode it into something the XBox 360 wants to understand.

This image is really because the server is running two different virtual oses while it runs, but as you can see, the weight on the server is minimal even still.  Soon I will benchmark the system a bit and post some results.  It is kind of like when your kid brings home a report card with A's on it.  You just glow.

You see, the Xbox 360 wants WMV and WMA content or the real deal CD or DVD - over a network, it doesn't care about anything unless a Windows Media Center 2003 or 2005 or Vista or someone else that has paid to use a codec to send data to the Xbox 360. Kind of Lame. Right? Two Lame indeed.

One of the coolest things and most exciting for me is the Interview.  Rarely do you get a chance to show yourself in a light or describe yourself as directly and react and respond in such a way.  You paint a picture in your future boss, or the H.R. person who is to qualify you's mind.  It is about taking the palette of speech and topics that they bring up, and using them and building on them as you continue conversation.  You certainly don't make the interview about them, but, this is your chance to find out more about them and their company, so keeping it about both of you will help you win the strongest.  Selling yourself needlessly is something you should try to feign away from.  Doing so makes you needy and seem weak.

Strong topics that you bring up should be direct, selected, and relevant.  This will maximize your future conversation from there.  Also, keep away from asking dumb questions, "Do you guys have a Culligan water thingy?", because they will destroy your creditability.

The nice thing is, today, I had a great interview.  It was a warm up for the re-meeting that I plan to have with MU's Telecom Department.  They are the mechanism that allows MU to keep itself going and the people that work there, are either Linux or Windows Server addicts.  They eat, sleep, and breath security, maintenance, and high performance systems.  Could I pick a better plateau to gather and jump from?  No.  Could I honestly pick a better place to secure my future and settle myself for the next several years with an investment and later a little bit of Travel as I see my credit score raise?  No.  The next couple years have a lot instore for them.

Future note: you are doing this so you can feel comfortable making babies with someone.  don't rush into that next step.  you want to be secure and safe - either WITH A HOUSE or selling one when that even starts happening.  that means that maybe 5 years from then (yeah, I might secure myself and save a little bit on the side so I know I can have a child if/when I get that old) i could be getting married, and it would be whatever lead to that that would decide if that's before or after marrage.  yeah, i guess i could start having a child before marriage, but i would seriously perfer against it.  this could change later, but that is my thoughts right now.

Ah, Memorial Weekend.  There's gonna be a party of existensial proportions this weekend.  More on that later.  My own flesh and blood brother will be with me, it is gonna be off da hook!!!

Emptiness go away.

Seems only the struggle is here to stay.

If in life, relationships are like hotel rooms, then I am a bellhop.

Where is my room?

Can not be taught.

It must be felt.

Tao means "the way" or "the path".
- Wikipedia

Such is the way that it is explained.  Funny enough, once you try to explain anymore about it, it feels trite.  Half there, and empty in explanation.  You feel like your cheating your audience.  Funny enough, I felt this way when I was taught organized religion, and now that I get to look back on the teachings that I still remember, they have so much more value.  I have facites within my structure of the Tao that articulate and enuciate the particulate of the Bible.

Another underlining theme is the idea that you use action with inaction.  In other words you cause things to happen by NOT creating the cause or maybe more correctly, not answering the cause and just filling in your part.  Don't rock the boat could be a very limiting view point of this (back when constant bantering, the very alive communication was only in the bar and even then you could find the reflective, the quiet zen, inaction was not such a strange thought, now-days, there is a constant exchange of energy, I would say that since global conciousness, immediate converstation is almost current, it is so much more impossible to describe the Tao as a being contained within inaction).  If I could modernize this, it would be the notion that you notice the need and that life creates the pieces that fill the void that has just been instantiated.  The puzzle wants to be solved does it not?  Isn't that why we are all here?  How else is that not the case?

Wikipedia has a nice way of putting this modernly (I read a really old book about it - still am), wu wei (effortless action), literal translation without action and is often said as, wei wu wei (action without action) in teachings.  Action, if truely effortless, looks like inaction as you can really tell if they did it, or if it happened of its own accord.  That might be the eccense of the idea, that the universe moves for you, and in that, even though things have happened, you didn't directly cause them and in fact, look comfortable in your non-motion.

In life there is entropy.  Entropy is the explination for the chaos that is innately within all life.  Generally, the less entropy there is in system, then the more order there is.  The energy that animates the existence is merely an action within a container, within an order array.  Some molecules or atoms, even systems have quite a lot of stability desire and yet, most systems are quite volital given the evironment.  The thing is, after this big bang, this extreme release of energy and expansion throughout the known universe, after matter is strewn out into the void, after things start to collect and order themselves inside galaxies, suns, planets, and stuctures of our universe, there was an order keeping and guiding certain things towards the end that they met.

Degrees of chance?  More or less.  In what I can only describe as a tunneling of direction (life is direction and momentum (attraction could be added here) - break it down to its smallest piece or take it to its largest amount - these three help make up what causes this entity to interact the way it does), somewhat like a funnel, all things are guided towards and end.  Evolution is merely a description of that effect.  Suns eat planets.  They eat each other, and the stronger one wins.  It "breeds" and grows.  The energies that were contained within are now shared and spread to its constiuents.

Fate is not totalitarian.  I am not sure this exists within the Tao, other than, Tao might be considered fate.  Fate would just be an attribute, and since it isn't a governing body in the flow (another description for how the Tao passes) then it can't really be said to govern your life.  You are a part of this too, but in that, to have as much harmony (to synchronize with the energy waves) with the Tao (the energy life force we are all a part of) gives you a certain deciding factor or specifically, helps you not be concerned with the outcome and generally, helps improve the outcome.

Think this way, if you could think of life as being this great flow we are a part of, then if you were able to coast within the flow, using the eddies, using the dips, and using the white-water in its most effective (to each their own flow and to each their own best method) way of transport, you should probably have a fairly good grasp of the Tao.  Also, you might notice that if you swim against the current or make turbulent actions within a flow of this current, the water around you and behind you is sullied with chaos and disorder.  You have disrupted the harmony of the flow of the Tao river.

Hope you enjoyed this rough modernization and my personal + wikipedia's notes, interpretation of Taoism.  To each their own, as in my eyes, many other Taoists, a few other organized religions, it is all one and to see it seperately is to remove yourself from it (to remove yourself from Him to some).

I will imagetize this in the morning, there will be improvements.

One of those funny things about feelings is that you can feel bad about them.  Why, you are human and it is human to feel things right?

Why should you feel bad about loving someone, it is not they who pretended to love you and then took it away.  They didn't tease you or hold out false promise.  You decided that you were going to love them unconditionally.  It was your choice.  You didn't demand or really think anything was GOING to come back, but hope is something to hold on for.  "Cliffhanger" might not be the best occupational choice here though.

It is also normal to hate this person at the same time as loving them.

Being hurt, disappointed, closed off.  Not everyone is capable of drawing out the multiple dimensions of the heart, but some are.  We love them so much we could hug their skin off, but hate them so much we want to punch them into next week.

All of these, all of those, emotions are normal so long as you are expressing what is in side of you and not just reacting to someone else's emotions.

If you express your emotions by reaction alone instead of feeling out what is inside of you and going on that journey of self discovery, finding your power creature, spider-monkey, and the girl that goes to the support group meetings too, having the best sex of your natural life, and getting to blow up the credit card franchise as your alter ego.

He tried to hold his back.  Fight Club was one of the few outlets for all that emotion, all of that competition, and all of that certainty.  One would win.

I will never feel bad for having loved.  I will never feel regret for closeness.  I want to one day share that with someone that is willing to share her's with me.

Could just be that my muscles are sore from lack of exercise or the same work-out for so long.

Either way, I've been up too long and deserve a good night's rest after a quite successful day today.

One nice thing I can say about living an empathy's life is that I've gotten to meet and entertain some very powerful personalities.  In this I've had the opportunity to gather life's goals from one experience at a time.  This collection is constant, I really don't ever stop, and like all good collections, I can't view all of it at once, but upon reflection I get new view points of the whole thing and how it all works.  Kind of like sitting outside yourself and looking in, seeing how the marble has been cut away or shaped with love or care or hate or lust.

Of these experiences, one has been quite a description that I have had the good chance of sharing with others as well.  Hopefully imparting the sheer wisdom, the cunning intelligence that is transferred upon illiciting a response, and the connections that get made in the the others mind.

The story of how two can exist in this world.

Granted some believe that there is a third in any relationship, God or god or the one, the source, the energy that we all are made up of is part of this relationship.  Lets take that ever so slightly for granted - especially if you believe we are merely reflections or hosts for that energy, then we are kind of like eyes looking at each other on the face of god.  The subject is beholding itself, we can forget about the third party for once, we are all one.

Now, in this idea of two that meet and want to spend the rest of their lives together, we have an idea of independence.  Who wants to become dependent?  Everyone and no-one.  It could be said that the everyone is because all like to be able to lean their head on someone else's shoulder at least once in their life, to say you don't means you either have too high of an ideal of yourself or you don't know how to accept help.  No-one really wants to accept help for their entire life though right?  They want to see the fruits of their achievements, they want to see the success of their efforts.  If you didn't then you must really not care for yourself or those you say you care about.  You wouldn't want to be the burden that they take on.

So herein lies the first part of this pleasant story about two trees growing in a forest.

The Oak tree and the Maple.  These trees might change after I talk to Dendrologist about the various features of said trees, but for now, Oak is strong and hard (male), the Maple... is a pretty name if you could imagine a tree-woman.

These two trees happen to grow from seeds that landed next to one another at the outside skits of a forest.  They have rooted themselves, quite unknowingly in the soil or the same system.  They have for lack of a better word, been fated together.  Some humans follow this same design, others say it is all chance, well, it was chance the seeds landed here, and here we are, they are growing.

As they grow, each tree notices that it must share the sunlight with the other.  Taking in too much sunlight means the other will wither and die for lack of energy, such would spoil the soil and honestly, leave the tree that's left, quite lonely.  If they share this light evenly, they will both reap the maximum benefit of its source.

Obviously they both must share the water, otherwise they will grow dry and die.  This isn't such a struggle above ground, but underground we see other things happen.  Root structures are like the branch structures funny enough and if you could flip most trees upside down, you would see the roots match the fullness of the branches, regardless of the tree (certainly an average here, but I've seen quite a few examples).  The roots must not choke the others roots.

What we see if how important space is around the continual growth that happens with any organism.  If you don't give the organism the proper space for it to grow, it will cause it to move to turmoil as it tries to make space for itself.

We have our two main sources for energy and the way for our pair to best use them.  The last yet, certainly not least, is the air that these trees take in.  This air is all around us, and it would be funny to think that one tree could use up too much of the other tree's oxygen or CO2, but let's think about when this source of life is instead a source of death.  These trees will have to weather a few storms in their lifetime of living and sharing themselves with each other.  If one is taking all of the storm, then it will surely snap or break or be blown over.  If one is hiding from the wind, then the other will get the malignant treatment and find it detrimental for certain.  It is important that both of these trees share the punishment, yet in their own way, help keep each other standing in the times of trouble.

Thus humans can be seen for the forest.

The lesson is surprisingly simple yet camouflaged in its difficulty.  To truly understand is the Tao accordingly what I know, this does mean, I am still learning how all of this applies.  The only way I know how to see it better is to one day at a time exercise the skill sets.  This one is like those relay races, you get better as your partners get better.  In that, we are fortunately trees that can choose where and what we live and grow next to.  We are lucky in this.

Lan Parties

Yeah these are cool, a bunch of nerd sitting around playing a game together.  Either you got your FPS crowd, or RTS peoples, and then you can even have console gamers, and many more.

I could almost care less about anything but FPSes.  Especially team based ones, they are the most fun for me, even if I am not exceedingly good at them, just moderate.

Here is a Lan Party I went to about 2 months ago, you could say in another two months (within that amount of time) I will have a Lan Party as well.

Kind of putting these up to make you guys think about what a Lan Party used to be and amp up for the one that will happen in the near future.

Whereas the thought of the action preseeds
the result is never quite the same
Mind walking without Gepeato's strings
can journey back from and to great things

Touch the thing you see and it will cease
to be the same for which you touched it
Praise away nay the play and instead
so much you love without loving the host

Love the actions and the existence
that the one generating such peace
can rain it to all subjects within her
gia.

- Jim McKibben

In the throws of passion, the element is the action.
Generating that element takes pairs
that want mutual existence,
not self serving vapid transparence.

She doesn't put out, he doesn't talk,
He doesn't put out, she doesn't talk,
Communication is key,
That is the philosophy.

Could one reach such an enlightened state,
that all there is pleasure to masturbate?

My world desires to seek,
fruits that are ripe and meek.
While spoken is the world of voice,
token advice actions speak twice.

Worlds view on men is only as powerful as ten,
ten is but one with a zero at the end.

The power of man is the culmination of his zen.

The zeal of woman is how she can bend that zen
Remove the zero at the end of ten
Make women and men out of his zen
To forces untold and for futures unfold
You know the pedia can only hold stedia
For power amplifies and shorts lead to lies.

Truth is the table that I wish to eat
Forefront foretold forenot the too bold
Fall on their face their own ass they trace
Seek not the self and try something else.

*now blogger has consumed th c.

any good game desires a good game player
king chess players finesse with knight like manner
rooms dominated by psycionistic pervasive pattern
snipe deriving beckoning denouncement of divine dividends
the player must also make patterns on the game
for otherwise fruitless is the one that doesn't reap
concentric coexistent cohesive make the pattern
one share the same separate we sustain
currently i have math to study and two customers to finish
and some time to put in at generic, too much time at east side
guitar lyric are cool even if on a ds though it does lack in metal
being mostly plastic i believe there should be a new plastic metal
and even plastic metal is pretty hard
the two acts prior had a power and metal

the electronic kids have a different way of hearing it but they are one and the same
in electronca generally (this changes when you got live pa - where) the artist has created
material with incredible rhythms and beat structure that is art to dance with
and in live pa you see smithing that is of incredible proportions, they
actually allow themselves to draw right on the dancer
its like nothing else in this world
well i could name one thing that might just top that
but you see that does make it bounce back
ocean of motion to proportion of extortion
threads weaving together new strings to be strung again
hopeless romantic i
mom that knows true guidance from a woman's point of view
father that knew circa 20s matting patterns
could have been good old boy i yet Jehovah's Witness was i
sight only sees half way, look again to see some mo
to have a seconds care for the existential moment isn't my mo
my forefathers sewed and reaped as will i

much love,
jonny5